okie, now i am writing something very personal, something i havent written in all these months of blogging. All this time, i have just let a part of me being exposed to the readers. Well, I have in no way set an illusion, but have also not revealed the real me. I am getting nutts. That is for sure. It's almost 12:30 at midnight and I don't feel like sleeping yet. I am musing over the possibilities of unconditional love, spiritual happiness, asceticism, purity of mind and soul, friendship, friends, betrayal, love, enmity and everything this small thinking box of mine can extend to. I long for friends, all gone and happy. They are working hard to make their future secure and happy. While some are still struggling to get their way to the desired path. I know they are with me in everything I do, in every hour of need. Now my mind is suffering an avalanche, a strong one, blowing everything. This is why I am writing all this crap. I am in love with someone I don't know. I am hating people I actually love. I feel betrayed while there are none to betray me. I feel loved by someone who doesn't even notice me. Freedom in love lies in asking nothing and expecting nothing. I am well aware of this. And, I expect nothing and ask nothing from him (who?? dunno). Absurd!! Not again!!!...This delirium will pass soon. I know. And before it fleets from my mind, I just have a feeling of pouring everything I am experiencing into words. Enjoy the read. This is how a desperate soul feels at midnight.
PS: I am listening to the melodies of MLTR right now. Feels kinda soothing and pleasing. Will, read 11 minutes now. After all, pleasures of world end in those mere 11 minutes. hope only few of you will grasp the meaning :P
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Saturday, March 03, 2007
my love for you
My love for u
mere words can't express
my longing for u
grows with the time that passes
I love u
that is for sure
still u doubt my intentions
there isn't a moment
when I've stopped thinking about u
when I stopped loving u
every word of mine
arises for u
for the feeling I treasure most
I don't know
if two hearts r needed for a feeling to foster
if this platonic love o' mine will reach u ever
I dream o' us
cherishing every moments of joy
crying together for the pain of mine
rejoicing every little victory
n mourning for the loses that destroyed
o dear
I'll give u the unconditional love
that needs nothing in return
let me feel u for once
let me pacify my burning desire
I'll treasure the feeling for the rest of my life
nurture it with mine
till I grow old
and when I die
I'll take it to the cremation
We'll burn together to ashes
mere words can't express
my longing for u
grows with the time that passes
I love u
that is for sure
still u doubt my intentions
there isn't a moment
when I've stopped thinking about u
when I stopped loving u
every word of mine
arises for u
for the feeling I treasure most
I don't know
if two hearts r needed for a feeling to foster
if this platonic love o' mine will reach u ever
I dream o' us
cherishing every moments of joy
crying together for the pain of mine
rejoicing every little victory
n mourning for the loses that destroyed
o dear
I'll give u the unconditional love
that needs nothing in return
let me feel u for once
let me pacify my burning desire
I'll treasure the feeling for the rest of my life
nurture it with mine
till I grow old
and when I die
I'll take it to the cremation
We'll burn together to ashes
Friday, March 02, 2007
The pigs
"Two legs bad, four legs good."
"Four legs good, two legs better."
This is how pigs changed their slogans before fighting against the brutal rule of human and after getting the freedom that they fought for. Well, having seen the present political scenario and then hearing the speeches of all the Maoist leaders, I feel that the leaders are the epitome of the 'pigs' of animal farm. Simply putting, Maoist leaders are pigs. They are changing every agenda with which they started the war or people's war. They are demanding for seats in the cabinet, mocking different indigenous group despite the fact that they were the one who inflicted such issues in our otherwise tolerant and peaceful society. Their every speech seems contradictory to their promises and norms. They mock and insult everyone going against them.
I dream of a prosperous, equal, democratic or rather republic, peaceful New Nepal. But I do have a doubt if my prospect of this New Nepal is just a utopian view like that of the farm which the animals themselves had once dreamed of. And I'm skeptical that our situation might go toward regression rather than progression if we continue having this "pig's attitude". I'm definitely not a pessimist. I'm rather pragmatic. The ongoing chaos and instability have induced a sense of intimidation and doubt in me. Is the prospect of new Nepal possible when all we are experiencing is a split among ourselves and the leaders acting like pigs? We all dream of a nation where all of its citizens are "equal", not the one where "some are more equal."
"Four legs good, two legs better."
This is how pigs changed their slogans before fighting against the brutal rule of human and after getting the freedom that they fought for. Well, having seen the present political scenario and then hearing the speeches of all the Maoist leaders, I feel that the leaders are the epitome of the 'pigs' of animal farm. Simply putting, Maoist leaders are pigs. They are changing every agenda with which they started the war or people's war. They are demanding for seats in the cabinet, mocking different indigenous group despite the fact that they were the one who inflicted such issues in our otherwise tolerant and peaceful society. Their every speech seems contradictory to their promises and norms. They mock and insult everyone going against them.
I dream of a prosperous, equal, democratic or rather republic, peaceful New Nepal. But I do have a doubt if my prospect of this New Nepal is just a utopian view like that of the farm which the animals themselves had once dreamed of. And I'm skeptical that our situation might go toward regression rather than progression if we continue having this "pig's attitude". I'm definitely not a pessimist. I'm rather pragmatic. The ongoing chaos and instability have induced a sense of intimidation and doubt in me. Is the prospect of new Nepal possible when all we are experiencing is a split among ourselves and the leaders acting like pigs? We all dream of a nation where all of its citizens are "equal", not the one where "some are more equal."
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